Thursday, May 28, 2015

A Spectrum of Divineness (ASD)

There is a theory that holds that certain patterns of brain circuitry cause autistic symptoms.But this type of syndrome has been associated with enhanced memory and also with amplified fear and sensory overstimulation. The former is usually a good thing; the latter what is urging us to call it 'disability'.To deal with their heightened senses and memory,which so called normal beings lack,they exhibit few dysfunctional acts like social withdrawal and repetitive behaviors.

Read on ....

"Well,we do not have a finite answer for this,but most cases of autism, however, appear to be caused by a combination of autism risk genes and environmental factors influencing early brain development" explained yet another time doctor Brad.

Kavitha sat there quiet,little Shiv was looking at a painting in the wall,he was constantly doing that since they came in to the consulting room.
Brad continued "As said in our last visit i have written a referral for therapies to start next month,that should really help Shiv"

"Thanks much Doctor.Will he at least speak few words as he grows" asked Kavitha
"I cannot be sure on that but will have to wait it out on that." said doctor and paused
he further added "And as i say always you have to be strong and believe that Shiv is not disabled of any kind"

Shiv is 6 years old,he was born normally and was an active child until 3 years of life,later when parents noticed that he never attempted to speak and lacked severely in interaction,that's when they started seeing doctor Brad.

Kavitha walked out of the clinic to the parking lot and opened the car door,shiv was looking up the sky.It was mid-day and sun was placed exactly perpendicular,sky looked like a big blue throw spread over, absolutely with no stains of cloud.She looked at her mobile and it was already 12:30 and she needs to be at home in 30 minutes for the chess instructor will be there waiting for Shiv.
"Shiv lets go,its getting late honey" she said,he did not respond and busy gazing the sky,she pulled his elbow and in seconds tucked him to the car seat.

She was driving on a single lane freeway and was speeding crazy.And had to maneuver madly to pass those slow ones often.While her body was driving the vehicle, her sub subconscious part was all concerned about Dr.Brad's advise on therapy, and that's when the miracle happened.

"Do not Pass" was the words from his mouth.

She immediately pulled over.Stepped out ran opened the back door.She kissed and hugged him, said
"Kutty,what did you say,please mom did not hear it properly honey,can you please say it again,please da one more time,can you".
Shiv was smiling but did not speak a word.She pleaded and cried but no answer.

10 years later.

Applause around the auditorium as Aiden received the trophy for Champions Title at the State level Chess championship for Teens,when handed over the microphone he said "Its a proud moment and I thank God the almighty" 
and then they announced "We welcome Shiv for winning the Challenger Tittle in the Championship".
Kavitha helped accompanied Shiv to the stage,they gave the trophy to Shiv but he did not react much to receive that and was looking at stage lights above.
"Please,i can have that" said kavitha and added "thanks for all your support.I am so happy for Shiv" she said.And suddenly Shiv pulled the microphone from her and held it close to his mouth and looked above the lights.

Silence.

and everyone could hear him breathing heavily for sometime and saying "you never passed other car,thanks" and handed over the microphone back to her,his attempt to socialize second time in life.
Kavitha's eyes welled with tears as her lips forming a smile,she cried the tears of happiness.

those special autistic moments are beyond science and diagnosis,those beautiful minds are different but not less than any other gods gift

PS:Composed this while listening to Naan Nee-Madras

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

life,luck and local

Mumbai Suburban railway one of the busiest rapid transit system in the entire world displacing 8 million souls on a daily basis.And its fast and overcrowded everywhere,no time to stand and breath ,when large numbers of people face similar problems together, on a daily basis, it develops an unknown psychological bond between members of that category, thereby bringing the group closer together, making it stronger,even if the members of the group are strangers.

Queuing up along a station platform every morning, keenly watching your train pull in, you start performing step wise routine actions:

-knowing the trains speed, timing your jump, leaping yourself in,
-after grabbing hold of something be it the rusted iron aromatic pole or door handle,at times its someone else's arm too
-important step ,stealthily looking around for a seat,window one would be a jackpot and diving into the best one before anyone else does.
-lastly a sense of achievement and then feeling good about yourself.

Read on for a sampled moment....

It was 10:04 AM to be exact and DL 13 slow speed local was pulling in to Kurla Station.
Enormous machine she was, parking in style at the station.The scene of crowd exchange - people getting out and getting in a transition crossfading.

Arief slurped his coffee quickly and yelled "Ajay come on, faster dude,cannot miss this one".
Crowd exchange was rapid and within moments the station looked empty and train was fully packed.
Gigantic machine she was and hurriedly sounded her big horn - a pleasing music for the commuters inside the train,but a painful panic alarm for the last minute chasers.

Slowly she pushed off the platform,Arief and Ajay started to jog maintaining a relative velocity with that of the train to make the boarding seamless

Arief looked back running,he was surprised to see a old woman keeping up with the pace behind him.She will never make it he knows.Our friends boarded the coach holding the pole.Arief looked out from inside and shouted at the woman with his full voice
"Hey lady,stop, you will never make it,there is one in 10 mins"  but she never cared to listen and was determined to board.
Ajay peeped out shockingly and inside the coach everyone was busy with their own business,most of them reading the Mumbai daily ,few shopping for eatables/clothes ,eating peanuts and chatting.

She was assertively running and Arief figured out that the platform will run-out in few seconds and the lady started to stutter on her legs.She will fall otherwise, so in a reflexive act he extended his right hand and held her.With in seconds she was holding on to Arief's hand and her foot off the ground as the platform vanished away.

He was holding his other-hand to the pole but he couldn't bear her weight.Ajay in no time held Arief's left-hand and embraced his body trying to pull him inside along with her.In the arrangement Ajay saw Arief's eyes and it hopelessly said 'i may have to let her go'. and Ajay nodded conveying an emotional 'no' same time his eyes quickly filling up with tears out of fear.

In this very few seconds of their eye contact and before they could decide any further, a man held Ajay by his hand from inside the coach and when Ajay looked back a strong human chain was already formed.People pulled each other and the miraculous chain reaction made Arief to absorb the woman inside,safe and sound.

As soon as the passengers thought she was fine everyone went back to their own business as if nothing had happened, no one spoke a single word related to the incident.The woman thankfully looked at Arief/Ajay and vanished inside the coach.

The local was speeding ,our friends traveling in foot-board, smiled at each other, stream of running air grazing their face and their hands moving their hair off the forehead in style.

luck and mumbai local are similar,if one is gone there is sure another one coming soon but Life is not same.

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Thanks Machi

Thanks is a common expression of gratitude.
Also a tricky word that usage of it in a way measure your closeness in the relationship.

Below is a sampled moment around this between two thick friends.

8:30 AM

"You don't worry machi,will meet you 5 pm in your room.Ok.By then i will have it ready" assured Dinesh over the phone.
"Dai how will you arrange it " exclaimed Raj
"Free ya vidu.Dont ask me for more details.All i want you to do is relax and get some sleep." commanded Dinesh
"Seri" raj paused, and added "and again i am telling one more time drive carefully machi,without helmet.Why don't your "paappu" care about it.Will she ever react to you about it" said Raj sarcastically and continued
"And this time i have set a remainder in my phone so that you wont forget to take it when you leave" said Raj and they hung up the phone.

It was more than a week that Raj was upset to make arrangement to pay college tuition fee for his brother.He knew there is no one else who can help him other than Dinesh.But he also knew that he does not have that kind of money.

Raj and Dinesh know each other for more than 15 years now.They went to same school now working for a small wage in private owned factories.They live 50 miles apart and used to meet every weekend and for the most part that they enjoy talking about is their best childhood days.And Dinesh latest acquaintance is his new Girl friend.He fondly named it "paappu".He just enjoys taking her around the city and he loves her deep from his heart.Raj many times felt really bad and get possessive over his friend spending time with his Girl,the feeling that he makes her feel more important than him.Both are finding it hard to handle the new addition between them.

5:15 PM
Door knock and Raj unfolded himself from the deep evening sleep.He know its Dinesh and opened the door.
"Dai.Looks like you rested well.Good" handed him a envelope as he spoke ."Send it to bro first time tomorrow when you get to work"
"Dai.How did you get this and.." before Raj could add further and was abruptly interrupted by Dinesh 
"Dai don't ask all those.I have got something else too" said he, and opened the beer cans.
Both had good time talking to each other and Dinesh this time never spoke a word about his "Paappu".

8:30 PM
"Ok da,i have to leave and get ready for this week.Next weekend we will meet" said Dinesh
"Dai wait lets go for dinner.." said Raj
"No machi,not today" said Dinesh as he was arranging his shoes.
Raj mobile beeped - "Helmet Remind" was the message,he went and got the helmet and proudly said "here you go."
Dinesh look at it and paused.
and said "Dai i don't need this anymore"
and after few seconds started to open the door to head out.
Raj called him "Dai" paused for few seconds  and said "Thanks machi " and hugged him.It was in the course of the hug using the arrangement that he doesn't need to see his eyes, he said "Say hi to your paappu".But Dinish knows he cannot anymore.